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I instantly thought of the short story called "Young Goodman Brown" by Nathaniel Hawthorne. [link] (One of my favs) The title character...

by Massat

You know, it really is the little details that make a great piece. Just the direction they each are facing says a lot. I love that they...

What I love most about this picture is that it tells an entire story. I get the sense that maybe she was coming to this place to meet h...

I love the brush strokes at the top. It's a nice touch. And the white where it tapers out at the bottom looks very stark against the da...



A Lady Insane

It's been over a year since I took this, but I still miss him.

For David Bowie, Aladdin Sane, the Thin White Duke. RIP
When I was a child, and something very good was ending, like a vacation or summer break, I would get this... feeling. Dread isn't quite the right word. And to say it was a physical reaction doesn't sound right, but in a way, it was. It felt sickly sweet and cloying. Like someone with too much perfume was smothering me, or I was ingesting the smell of too sweet candles. Yeah, I felt engorged on saccharine syrup. It gave me a bellyache.

Occasionally, I feel that way again, and I take it to be an omen, foreshadowing an ending.

I feel it now. And it scares me. I never knew how to get rid of that feeling as a child. I still don't. It sits like a pit in my stomach.

Maybe it's just change. Change is scary. Isn't it? Maybe it's growing pains. We never stop growing... no matter how old. Maybe it's my barometer. And when the world, either my own or the larger world, is taking a bad turn, it acts as a beacon. Alerting me of the impending-- Doom.

Whatever the case, it's always felt wrong. Makes me feel off. Maybe it's the little part of me that's itchy to DO, when all I want to do is NOTHING. If that part still exists.

I used to escape. Into books and movies and other realms of make-believe. Now, I embrace the nothing. But the nothing is cold and has no arms to embrace back. Maybe that's why I take no comfort in it, even though it feels like the only safe place I have, sometimes.

I'm in a bad relationship with nothingness. We spend all of our downtime together, and it's abusive. Or, more likely, I'm abusive. And the nothing can't stop me.

Nothing can stop me...


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miriam (molly)
United States
I want to fast forward,
Flash toward the horizon and
look back through my dust cloud.
Give me green lights and even greener pastures,
Lead me to home,
Whatever that is.

Current Residence: Philly, PA
Favourite genre of music: Rock and Alt are my favs
Favourite style of art: hmmm...
MP3 player of choice: Slacker
Personal Quote: "Man is born free, and is everywhere in chains." ~Rousseau

Will Feature for food... I mean, comments.

Journal Entry: Mon Feb 21, 2011, 9:18 AM
:Pretty Peacock by littleshireling:

The first 15 people to comment in this journal get a feature.:heart:

The catch is, that you must post this in your journal, putting me in the first place (in my case that would be the amazing bumble-boo), and continue the chain! Well, I won't make it mandatory, but it might be a nice gesture if you did! (If you don't have a sub, you can do a feature with links.

Plus, it's a chance for you to get featured even more if you do continue it.  So comment!!

  • Listening to: Deacon Blues by Steely Dan
  • Reading: The Somnambulist
  • Watching: Family Guy
  • Playing: Words with Friends
  • Eating: Special K Red Berry
  • Drinking: Tea :)




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jacksonmstattoo Featured By Owner Feb 4, 2015  Professional Traditional Artist
thanks for the fav!
nuggetams Featured By Owner Nov 21, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
HighLonesomeDesign Featured By Owner Jun 26, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Happy birthday!

Lol, my happy birthday comment from last year is two messages below. XD Hope things are well!
littleshireling Featured By Owner Jul 25, 2012
Hey! Thanks for the birthday wishes! I haven't been on much recently. Well, for a long while lol. How are you doing?
HighLonesomeDesign Featured By Owner Jul 25, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
You're welcome! And yeah, I dropped off DA for a few months, too. I'm gonna start making a living just from day trading soon...and I have time for almost nothing else for now (not for long, there's just so much learn at first), but I'll be able to work anywhere so I can actually travel... YEAH APPARENTLY PLACES OTHER THAN TEXAS REALLY DO EXIST. Exciting! XD

And I might be moving to England in a year or two. I hope. :I
JBism Featured By Owner Jun 15, 2012
Hello there!
Umbrella-girl1995 Featured By Owner Jun 26, 2011  Student General Artist
HighLonesomeDesign Featured By Owner Jun 26, 2011  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Hope you have a wonderful birthday! :)

Love the new tattoo, also.
Sejitsu Featured By Owner Apr 30, 2011
Sorry this is super-late, but thanks so much for the watch! :)
nero1209 Featured By Owner Apr 21, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
hi this may be a ignorant question but how do you get the insperation for your art
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