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I just found out that my cat, Milky, has lymphoma. She's been diabetic forever and she just recently kicked the diabetes. Well now she has this to deal with. She's lost a lot of weight in a short period of time and it looks like the end is coming fast. I just had a moment of "oh shit, she's not going to be around much longer." I had been handling it okay, now I don't know how I'm going to handle it when she passes.

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Ever just feel like, no matter what you're doing, in every aspect, whatever the situation, you just... can't win?

Thaaaaat's me.

RANT TIME.

I've worked at my job for 4 years now. I've gotten two raises during that time.

Sounds good, doesn't it?

WRONG! I just got my paycheck. I was so excited all week for this paycheck because I'd worked 52 hours and it was gonna be a sweet check. Boy was I wrong. By over $100. I am so pissed right now. SOOOOOO pissed. My tip share has been reduced, it seems. I was making more than I am now when I first started, I swear. I really think someone (our GM, most probably) is fucking with my money. It just so happens that the arrival of our new General Manager coincides with my decrease in tip share and an increase in server pay. Some of my server friends have told me there is extra money in their checks these days. It's not an increase in salary, it's just extra money. Strange, right? I think he's taking the hosts' well earned, well deserved, and rightful tip share, and he's putting some of it in the servers' pay. THAT IS NOT FUCKING RIGHT. I, and some of the other hosts, have EARNED that money. I bust my ASS trying to make guests feel welcome, trying to appease the servers who don't want this or that table because they think they won't tip, trying to deal with servers, hosts, cooks and managers who are fucking INCOMPETENT assholes, and trying to make the restaurant run as smoothly as possible without getting fed up myself. I deal with shit from employees and customers all week long and I get complimented on how great a job I do and then I get shit to show for it. Absolute shit.

I had a guest the other day came in with 3 others. I greeted them very warmly and asked how many in their party. What did she say? "How many do you see?" Like I'm some ignorant ass asking how many in their party just to sound stupid. Biggest attitude too. Like I can't count. How am I supposed to know you're not 2 parties of 2? How am I supposed to know that there aren't 8 more of you outside?

You know what the sad part is? I like my job. Most nights, I love it. Even when I get ignorant customers who give me a hard time, they just end up giving me a great story that I can tell. I love most of my co-workers and I'd like to stay there a bit longer. But if they're fucking with my pay? Well, then that'll be it. If they don't appreciate the work I do for them, then screw them.

I'm gonna talk to our GM on Friday (my birthday) and see what he says. Hopefully I'll have this resolved by Saturday...

If you read this far, thanks and I apologize. I just felt like bitching... **sigh**





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Just wanted to update.

I'm in the process of moving (I've been moving since monday and I'm not done yet. haha)
I will read and answer comments soon, as well as check out all the 5,000 or so deviations in my devwatch. lol

I guess that's all for now.



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